1st i am going to vent/complain because i am mad and frustrated.
i want to go to prom plain and simple and its not going to happen..
i want to go to college and that problem isn't going to happen either
and lastly i want to school to be over!
but with that last statement i feel highly nervous... it brings emotions that i didn't know that i had fear that i didn't know were possible and possibilities that are endless.. i have a little more until i GRADUATE!. i am done. done waking up to go to school on a seemingly scheduled day. 5 classes all 72 minutes with a 30 minute lunch period and 5 minutes between to change classes.. sometimes 7. i won't have that anymore.. but morely i won't see the same kids i have seen almost everyday for my whole life.. and knowing that when i leave school i won't coming back.. i think that you "grow up" in high school. maybe not to who you will be for the rest of your life. but it gets you on a path.. and to know that i am leaving the place where that happens seems weird... i am leaving teachers who have watched me cry and puch me to succeed. I guess ultimatly it builds up to that 15 seconds. fromt eh time they call your name and you walk across the stage (hoping not to trip) shake someones hand and walk off. it all builds to that. all the late night of studying.. endless hours of homework... all for what 15 seconds that changes everything... weird to think.
werid to think of the friends i have. who more than likely i won't ever see again or talk to.. just all very werid.
i'm done thinking..
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